Life of Polarity
It’s 3am and I’m wide awake. There’s no better time than now to write about what’s going through this complex mind of mine.
The last couple of weeks, I really got it why I (we) need to step up and into what we’re great at. The sooner we understand the urgency for ourselves, the sooner we will be in service to help others through their own struggles. So in all this seriousness, I started to feel really heavy. So heavy that I haven’t been able to sleep at nights… in fact, I’ve been waking up 2 or 3am the last few mornings. In a weird way, this is kind of good too but I’ll talk about that another time.
I’ve been told that this time between 2 to 4am is the window when we get the most connection to our higher realms of consciousness… the time when the doors to our inspiration sometimes bust open with messages from God or angels or the Universe. I love waking up at 4 to 5am… but 2am, really?
Anyway, I’ve been so serious in recognizing what I’m put on Earth to do that I lost my sense of the polarity of that… which is we all need to just joke around a bit and relax.
We’re meant to love, laugh and enjoy our lives… that’s the whole point of this experience we call life!
When I woke up… I lay in bed thinking about everything including my clients (weird huh but true… that’s how deeply I care about them) and the seriousness of their transformation. I decided to go downstairs to spend some time in meditation. I was there for a few minutes when I heard the stomping of little feet upstairs running down the hallway, opening up my bedroom door and then closing it after. Stomp, stomp, stomp… the little feet come down the stairs. “Mommy? Mommy?… I pee’d in my bed like twenty times.” Oh no.
Somewhere between changing the sheets and giving him a bath in the quiet night, I looked into his beautiful brown eyes and sank right in. There’s no seriousness for me tonight… just an open heart to love a little boy who needed a mom that was compassionate and caring through a vulnerable moment. As I tucked him in, all cozy into his clean sheets, we stared into each other’s eyes and we smiled. It dawned on me, we need to smile more and laugh more in this world that sometimes can be a little heavy.
We’re meant to experience it ALL. The good and the bad, the joys and the anger, everything in between. That’s why we were created. We were also created to live in a life of abundance and joy doing what we love and feel purposeful… this is where I feel a lot of us have gotten lost in this world that sometimes feels more like a rat race.
The good news is it’s all done. There isn’t anything we actually HAVE to do but rather what’s before is everything we WANT to do. It’s not meant to be all seriousness, it’s also meant to be fun and playful… that’s where abundance lives when we experience all the polarities of our existence. And there I go again… all deep…
Think I’ll chill out tomorrow and do something fun.